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This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Dillon Adams who was born in Illinois on April 10, 2006 and passed away on November 03, 2006 . We will remember him forever. 


"Most people only dream of angels, I held one in my arms"


Dillon Zachary Adams was born 9lbs 6 oz via C-section. He was perfect. At about 6 weeks old we found out Dillon was sick. The final diagnosis was Bile Acid Synthesis Defect. He was not making normal bile and it was destroying his liver and poisoning his little body. Dillon passed away in my arms awaiting a liver transplant. He was almost 7 months old.


The doctors told us that they would tell us when there was no more they could do. And, that's exactly what they did. I had known a couple days earlier that Dillon would not be coming off the oscilator, just a mother's intuition. I begged Dave for us to just let him go. But Dave said he had more fight in him. I just saw machines and meds doing the fighting for him. I just wanted to see the suffering stop and to hold my baby again. The ascities just could not be kept under control, even though they were now continually draining the fluid. His heart rate would have decels every once and a while and within seconds go down into the 50's. It would recover on it's own though. His lungs filled up with fluid and his oxygen saturation would go into the 70's. The adema that had built up from laying on one side for so long was the worst. His one eye swelled up to about the size of a golfball. His lips would swell and even with stuff to keep them moist, cracks would burst open on them. He was tired and had been through enough. We made the hardest decision we ever had to make. I sat in the rocking chair and they started unhooking all the tubes and IV's. They gave him a huge dose of morphine beforehand. The last to be taken off was the ventilator and before doing so they turned and asked if I was ready. How can you possibly be ready, I thought, but I shook my head yes. The doctor told me she thought he would go fast, maybe a couple of minutes or so. Earlier that night I told Dillon that when it was time for him to go to heaven we were just going to pretend we were at home in the rocking chair and I would sing him his favorite song. They removed the vent and handed me my sweet baby boy...I saw the middle of his chest rise and fall a few times and then nothing. I started screaming for the doctor to check him. She listened with the stethascope and told me he was still with us but his heartbeat was very faint and beating only about 10 beats per minute. I was rocking him and crying so hard but still singing rock a bye baby to him. Baby Dillon lasted 20 minutes in my arms before going to heaven. I handed him to the nurse and then daddy sat with him. Before they had taken him off the vent his heartrate was skyrocketing up to the 140's. He was so hot to the touch. Before I walked out of the room to give daddy time to hold him I kissed his forehead and he was already cool. I could not for the life of me go back into the room. Which I now regret. I felt such a profound emptiness that I cannot think of a word to describe it that would come remotely close. This whole grieving process is heartwrenching. I don't know how I will get through this. I miss my baby terribly. This is just not fair.








We miss you sweet angel. You blessed us with your short, but beautiful life. It felt like only a minute that we held you in our arms, but you will be held in our hearts for a lifetime.



 




Lullabies
-Author Unknown

Daddy please don't look so sad, Mommy please don't cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus and He sings me lullabies.
Please do not try to question God, don't think He is unkind.
Don't think He sent me to you and that he changed His mind.
You see, I am special and I'm needed up above.
I'm the special child you gave Him, the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you.
So watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that's gleaming.
That's my halo's brilliant light.
So Daddy please don't look so sad.
Mommy please don't cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus.
And He sings me lullabies


I wrote this for Dilly's 6 month "angelversary"

To Dillon, Love Mommy...

I held your hand and said it's ok to go
Jesus had bigger plans for you
This I now know

I kissed you, I rocked you
Til your heart's last beat
Then Jesus said "Come with me Dillon, there are others to meet!"

"There are babies in Heaven just like you! And these little angels have suffered too."
"No more pain, and nothing to fear
You are so loved, There'll be no more tears."

"Your mommy's missing you so, but she needs to understand,
you still live in her heart
And your now holding her hand." 


Tributes and Condolences
Tears 4 U   / Shauna Boyd (Friend of Mother )
Mei your Heaven be lying in the comfort of your mother's loving arms...
WORDS  / CHAD KING (FRIEND)
WORD'S WILL NOT TAKE AWAY THE PAIN BUT I'M HERE IF YA NEED ME !
HB  / Randy Berg
Happy Birthday little guy...
beautiful baby   / P. Thomps (from GROWW )
What a beautiful angel baby boy!!! My heart goes out to each of you as I know your hearts are broken.
Sweet Dillion   / Michele Demzien (Freind of mom's )
Dear little Angel, I met your mommy last night on the GROWW Heavenly Angels chat room. She love and missed you very much.  I know that you are with God and all of our Angels.  My angel Chuck loved his nephews, so I know he is taking care ...  Continue >>
tears / Ranell (none)    Read >>
We miss you so much...  / Shannon Flies (Liver Mom Friend )    Read >>
For Dylan On His Angelversary  / Denise Kneale (connected by angels )    Read >>
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"  / Johnette Moninger (New Friend )    Read >>
I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy  / Janeane Bricker Brandons Mom (Another Sad Mother )    Read >>
PRECIOUS DILLION,  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT     Read >>
And God Said.......  / Diane Angel Mom- Katie Cassidy (I care )    Read >>
ALWAYS IN MY PRAYERS!!  / April Obrien (myspace, the mom contact me. )    Read >>
Prayers / Sarah Hoenisch     Read >>
Thinking of you  / Lucetta     Read >>
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